I created this video to share why I am now divorced. I know that this is a very personal subject but I wanted to share my story in hopes that it will help someone else. I know I may lose friends, family or your looks upon me will change but all that doesn’t matter if this video will help one person. So I hope you can respect and view this video as it was intended. I share it with love.
The transcript
Hi everyone, I just wanted to reach out and, and kind of talk to, to all of you about kind of why Julia and I started down the path of divorce. It’s my fault. I’ve been addicted to pornography since I was 15. So almost 30 years. I mean, it’s been off and on for a long time. But, but. But I’m happy to report though that I’m at 19 months clean. Even through the divorce, I’ve been able to remain clean, which I am very, very excited about. And I’m not done yet, obviously. Kind of the reason why I’m sharing this Well, first off is, is to actually just to thank Julia, for putting up with me for a long time. Kind of the reason why I’m at 19 months is because of her, I started on a path of recovery before the divorce. And I’m continuing that path. So I wanted to thank her for that.
The second reason why is because I know a lot of people suffer from the same addiction or any addiction, really. And it sucks. It sucks a lot. And the reason why I’m sharing this with you, is because I don’t want you guys to go down the same path I did, or that same path Julia did. Hopefully, it’s not too late. Because part of that recovery was was a little late when I started with the help reaching out to people. That was a big mistake. So that’s why I’m trying to tell you, if you’re suffering from any addiction, to reach out, to get the help that you need. As you know, with addiction, oh, it goes up and up and down, you’re doing really well. And then all of a sudden you get complacent and then all of sudden you relapse. And one of the biggest things that’s helped me not to relapse during this time is number one, my Savior and His Atonement. He’s helped me out through some of the darkest times I faced. And I am grateful for him, for my savior, for helping me to stay on this straight and narrow. And that’s the hope I have with the Atonement is that I can continue this path. Even if I make mistakes, I will be able to continue this path. The thing is, I’m telling you this because I want you to be on this path too.
I want you to be able to take advantage of the Atonement. Use him, suffer with him. Do more. Because without him, this will never be done. I can never do what I’m doing now without him and his help and his sacrifice. But we also have to sacrifice too. We have to use this atonement for our benefit. So that’s why I plead with you. If you’re in a good moment with your addiction, fantastic, awesome. But to stay there, get the help that you need. Reach out to him
Reach out to a group of recovery, I promise you, you will not regret it, that you will actually do what you need to do to be able to return to Him. Another thing to those may not be viewing this and may not have an addiction. I promise you that recovery book that the church puts out is a resource for everyone. Not just one person, not just those in recovery. Because really, it’s it’s really not my group, we’ve actually called it the healing power of the atonement in 12 steps. So I promise you, if you do want to take advantage of the Atonement, to do better than what you were doing the day before. I promise you you will not regret this and you’ll be able to look at it and be able to recover and grow. So that’s my one hope. I already understand the risk of putting this video on social media. It could be that I may lose a job or not be able to get a job because of this video, or any type of relationship
Probably the biggest thing is that’s nothing compared to knowing that you’re clean so the risk outweighs does not outweigh those who need to hear this. So please, please just reach out to anybody start that path of recovery. I promise you it is SO SO worth it.
And I hope and I pray that it’s not too late for you like it was for me. So please don’t follow my footsteps. Do better than what I’m doing at what I’ve done. And I promise you, you will not regret it. It will be it will be the best thing that you’ve ever done. And I do love each and every one of you and that’s why I’m doing this video, even with the risk. So until next time, I love you. God bless you and follow him.